28.10.11
Only One
22.10.11
~ Scars of Lovely Memories ~
Trying hard to relocate
Every broken piece
A memory that we created
Unknowingly destined to end
The normalcy you portray
Is unhealthy but helpful
The sight of your absence
Creates life into an abyss
We spoke of departures
Over countless drinks of love
Shinning wet eyes plunge
Into every vein we shared
Merging myself with you
Helped live every moment
Now that life is gray
It fakes colors here and there
Feelings get recycled instantly
Being fooled by my fantasy
Your every smile and voice
Excites a pointless desire
Forgetting you seems harsh
Like an uncalled for death
Fictionally uniting with you
I decide to live this death
Somewhere this cessation
Includes painful pleasure
Knowing that your absence
Can prick every scar I make
-- Tanvi D
22.9.11
forever discovering
Life is a quest
knowing about itself,
and
the basic reason
of its existence
We are mere wanderers
understanding every move
and
every string pulled
by the ultimate Beholder
15.8.11
Now & then !!
It was the first breath
Birth starts the journey
Not knowing the start time
Destination also was unknown
It was the first word
No hints of recollection
Was it Mom or Dad?
Or did I just wave a "Hi"
It was the first smile
With bunny like teeth
Purely a smirk it was
Sarcasm was faraway
It was the first yawn
Nose shrinks to tiny ball
Sleep was forced on
Now, stress works wonders
It was the first hug
Learnt the emotion of love
Unaware of its different faces
Simple feelings turned complex
It was the first tear
Peaceful as it could be
Now there is some immunity
A stage between chaos and calm
It was the first life
Starting with pure innocence
Pushed into the world of lust
Now, Breathing through this dust
1.8.11
Misunderstood Destiny
Destiny,
A pre-decided
Maze.
Nothing alters
Not even the
Result, nor
Our control
To lead it, and
Then follow it.
Too many faces
We see,
Voices we hear
And attract them
Mutually
In each others life
Something hits
And we connect
Instantly.
And then we wonder
Was this written
Or known before
To our heart.
Taking step ahead
Emotionally
Bond grows strong
Unknowingly.
Hardships,
An alter ego
Of every relationship
Make an entry
Unfortunately.
And we are amazed
Again
Is it still written?
This future.
Every moment
People & things
That we encounter
Was it a matter of luck
Or we enter this world
With a list
Or an itinerary
Or with every piece
Of this jigsaw of life.
That will complete
At our ultimate
Departure.
Questions are plenty
Each having a
Hopefully convincing
Answer.
But the one question
That will remain
Unanswered forever is,
Who answers us
And our queries
That we are born with
Or are given to us
To solve on our own.
We call it Destiny,
Isn't it?
The one that will
And the only one
That will lead
And answer all of us
Or there is a catch
A twist in the question
Whose destiny is a
Maze in itself
Since its inception.
So we are back
To point zero
Where we assume
Or some don't
That our questions
At least some of them
Will stay as they are
Forever unsolved.
And that our life is
Simply an impromptu ride
Given to us at birth
As a gift
Where we meet
People we love
Care, share and miss.
Ultimately we must
Thank the almighty
For gifting their presence
In our heart.
Hence,
Live life everyday
Every second
For every new minute
Is a new experience
For your life has
Many unrevealed
And fascinating surprises
Awaiting.
--
31.7.11
~ essence of heart ~
wandering everywhere
with a face
a clueless mime
Wondering
Wandering and
Pondering over
wonderful reactions
those self imagined
Strange longing of you
has swiftly entered in
taking complete control
of the complete me
with incompleteness
of You.
Somewhere I confirm
I belong to you
Reality tells me
makes a joke
of my much mortal
Destiny,
There is no fear now
simply a feeling of
forced peace
pushing aside my soul
my heart
my love,
a given up gesture
to knock the gate
of the supreme power.
Heaven or Hell??
Horns or Wings
Nothing matters
when every stream in me
is filled with you
your ongoing voice
lasting touch
warm embrace
and your eyes locked
in mine.
Claiming for a place
in your heart
my heart has stories
that will suffice
to get a verdict
in my favour
of staying in you
somewhere
for infinite seconds
that remains immortal
just like my Love.
--
14.7.11
~ it went by ~
A day of my life
Unknowingly
I got myself indulged
In You and Me
Paving a stairway
Never-ending
I lived on the roof
With You and Me
Words of silence
Flying
I take your breath
From yours into mine
The finger entangles
Walking
I feel numbness
Of Your hand over me
The moments disappear
Faraway
I live with a longing heart
Fusion of You and Me
--
Women, indeed
Hammer in one hand
Rose in the other
Only a WOMAN
does it better
Handbag in one hand
A baby in the other
Only a WOMAN
does it better
Pen in one hand
Onion in the other
Only a WOMAN
does it better
Tears at one moment
Smile in the next one
Only a WOMAN
does it better
Employee at dawn
Family at dusk
Only a WOMAN
does it better
Woman NOW
Woman LATER
Only a WOMAN
does it better
--
16.4.11
'boulevard of dreams'
Walking straight or
At times steep
On this runway
That pulls me quick
Amazed and Stunned
At what is happening
As this promenade shows
What my heart is breathing
Things I simply adore
And the people I respect
Smile and Wink at me
With ecstatic effect
Speed slowly quickens
With a desire to reach
Suddenly HE peeks
Pulling me through cheeks
The other side hides
Patches of dark life
Enemies of the ride
Making hurdles more wide
Reaching that high stream
Where one side is serene
But the other side screams
Leave my boulevard of dreams
-- Tanvi D
6.4.11
29.3.11
Black [labelled] Comedy
"Jokes apart
Life still remains
A black comedy
People we meet
Few already are dear
Act as stand-up comedian
Either we or they
Impact everywhere
Results into laughter
Laughter so loud
Right from the heart
Wetting eyes instantly"
-- Tanvi D
27.3.11
...knocking surprises...
Knocking the destiny
Those words
I never wished for
Myself and for
Anybody.
Making me numb
And tender
That is surprising
Every part
Of the blank me.
Hiding those tears
My hearts eyes
Fear of expression
Covers my soul
Protecting my emotions
That took a major toll.
Every inch of hope
Cling too close to breathe
Irrespective of
Being ignored
By unfortunate events.
Now, there is nothing
To lose
Memories sit in my crypt
Breathing peace
Yet, there is no win.
A life sketched so long
Equally filled with
Unlimited and undying
Remembrances of
-- Tanvi D
19.3.11
"Discovering Life"
Arrived on this planet
With GoD's grace and make
A soul filled with love
For everyone to take
A temper not known to the Sun
Was paired with a weak heart
Always swam in bad phase
As good was not welcomed
The soul was in deep pain
As love also wore horns
Nothing seemed dear to it
As millions scar had taken over
Wondering about conspiracy of life
And its purpose of existence
No road can be identified
Desires look unfamiliar to them
The uncertainty of this coin
One side reflects ardor and hope
Flipside shows strange face of guardian
A blend seasoned with questions
Certain aspirations have half life
And some are past avatar mandates
Forced upon our questioned destiny
Resulting to some definite incompleteness
Standing in the world of possibilities
Knowing the departure point of each
Still juggling self with every chance
And wandering in the waves of negation
Unlocking and locking frequently
Swiftly moving every phase of phases
Heading towards the popular end
With a bits of desire and fear
-- Tanvi D
6.3.11
"Despaired Reality"
Crossing almost half-life
Without knowing when it ends
I sit wondering almost daily
A default question of cessation
With nil percent of fear
I wait to open the gate of afterlife
Not knowing hell or heaven
But assuring emancipation
Dear pals want to debate
The disturbing thought of exit
Speculating about my scars
That in itself is mystery
Life, an ongoing quest
Breathes nothing but desires
Those pure fortunate moments
Turning into unfortunate ends
Knowing this doomed reality
And ignoring its existence
I turn my heart towards Almighty
With wetting every arid corner
Feeling of ignorance stemmed
Consecutive smashing of doors
Develops a doubt about destiny
Considered as a gift by everyone
Reaching a step on the ladder
Where anger overtakes hope
With immeasurable darkness
Hiding the leftover inner glare
An irritating immortal hope
Makes me smile for a moment
And shed tears in the next one
Confusion at its peak spot
Flickering faith on possibilities
Developing an intense dispute
Hearts ignition and mental pause
Dividing & ripping off every yearning
Sudden birth of fortitude
Standing with absolute zest
In stillness of immortal desires
Smiling over destined solitude
Living under the tree of memoirs
Coating all over in its warmth
Waiting to embrace the end
Wishing for a better revival
2.3.11
...an insight...
A truth that sleeps within
And keeps talking to us
also listens to us
Tries to convince us
To let it free
But our nut-size heart
The poor sufferer
Has to go through
What the eyes see
And what the ears listen
Different perceptions of truth
Truth, a stubborn kid
And glowing innocence
Not willing to compromise
A cocktail of stress
Filling a huge pitcher
1.3.11
...sometimes...
Sometimes
Silence scares
Words are scars
Love that we care
Is considered as
Torturous to bear
Who should we spare?
The one in despair
Or those who are
Not worth the tear
Love is perplex
Making all complex
Wise are those
Standing on toes
With a beautiful rose
Even in their woes
-- Tanvi D
...mirror image...
She notices herself
In the mirror, but
This time it's her blindness
Strange blindness
Courtesy cold feet
And a shivering heart
A heart that is haunted
By warm memories
And bitter realities
One ache led into other
As she pricked
One of her dear vein
A vein that knew
Nothing
But living in peace
-- Tanvi D
Only You !!
There you are
Again
Whirling in my
Dreams
A lil at dawn, a lil at dusk
A lil in everyday
A scent
That you spread
Runs along every
Nerve
Dipping each of them
In the potion
Of love and
Passion
The spark of your eyes
Is still with me
In the ecstatic
Moonlight
It hallucinates
My mind
With our warms moments
Breathing
Just like a new born
Pure and untouched
Just out of the womb.
But unlike the
New soul
Our memories
Never grew together
But I know that
It's grown to some sort
In me
I am waiting
To hug you
Which you know
I never did.
I am missing
That deep breath
Of yours
Seeping through me
That hush-like sound
Still echoes.
The way you held
My hand
Nobody ever did that
To me
Nobody kissed me
But you
Nobody heard me
But you
Those silent moments
Of you, me and
That bench
In the woods
It's only you who
Gave me
And now I am
Addicted and crippled
That those memories
Have turned past
With no hint
Of re-entering
Now, every night
I start breathing you
Every thought
Losing direction in sync
Only weeps your absence.
-- Tanvi D