"Despaired Reality"

Crossing almost half-life
Without knowing when it ends
I sit wondering almost daily
A default question of cessation

With nil percent of fear
I wait to open the gate of afterlife
Not knowing hell or heaven
But assuring emancipation

Dear pals want to debate
The disturbing thought of exit
Speculating about my scars
That in itself is mystery

Life, an ongoing quest
Breathes nothing but desires
Those pure fortunate moments
Turning into unfortunate ends

Knowing this doomed reality
And ignoring its existence
I turn my heart towards Almighty
With wetting every arid corner

Feeling of ignorance stemmed
Consecutive smashing of doors
Develops a doubt about destiny
Considered as a gift by everyone

Reaching a step on the ladder
Where anger overtakes hope
With immeasurable darkness
Hiding the leftover inner glare

An irritating immortal hope
Makes me smile for a moment
And shed tears in the next one
Confusion at its peak spot

Flickering faith on possibilities
Developing an intense dispute
Hearts ignition and mental pause
Dividing & ripping off every yearning

Sudden birth of fortitude
Standing with absolute zest
In stillness of immortal desires
Smiling over destined solitude

Living under the tree of memoirs
Coating all over in its warmth
Waiting to embrace the end
Wishing for a better revival

 

-- Tanvi D